Note 2 Self

 Dear self,

Don’t mess this up!

why? What could i mess up?

hmm... let me count the ways

1) Laugh like a weirdo

2) Scream loudly

3) Go sniffing his hair when you think he is not noticing

4) Run across the room when you have 5 minutes of break left just so you can say "Hi"

5) Just smile and get lost in his eye and then he realizes your staring...

6) Say there is someone in this room that you would love to date... and stare right at him

But, i haven’t done all these things! 

- yes- but you may... so it is just a note to self. 

Dear Future BF

Dear Future Boyfriend of mine,
We would run out and  laugh in the rain and when Ii get cold you would offer me your jacket that smells just like you; the sent of honeydew. You would come up behind me and give me a hug and keep me warm.  My mascara would smudge because of the rain but you wouldn't mind and you would push back my soaking wet hair out of my face and we would walk along with fingers inter winded with one another. And when i look at you i realize nothing else matters but you. The next day we would go to a cafe and talk and talk and laugh. I would have attacked the ice-cream desert i ordered and then feel like a fatty even though i am far from it. But you would smile and feel grateful for a girl that eats. Then we would just have the time of our life and be so happy with each other!

~Sweet_but_Deadly

we never have enough time

we had a convo

We had a convo, a very long one to be exact and it was nice.  I got to learn something's about you, and you even learnt some interesting things about me. I pretty sure you were interested, and i know that i was definitely interested in you  and all about you. You’re so nice, and you voice your thoughts. I think i even caught you calling me "cute" in a little "hidden message" you gave me. It made me think about you all day and i thought about that hidden message, i wanted to question you about it but soon the day was over and i went to sleep still thinking about it. 

You called me cute, at least i think you did. I still think about it..... 

J

  ~Sweet_But_Deadly

love music lyrics

sometimes, I wish you'd pay
more attention to my favorite
songs because the lyrics sing
words i'm too scared to say

- Unknown

Laughing love

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"The spaces between your fingers were created so that another's could fill them in." 

- Unknown

We passed each other in the hallway about 6 times and every time we made eye contact. I smiled at you and went on to my classes but I kept getting you in my mind. Finally I got to see you in my class and I found where you were sitting. I sat close, but not to close. You got up to get a book and when you came back you had the book, in which I told you we don’t need it for class just a notebook. You smiled sheepishly thinking “ wow” and I smiled at your cute mistake. Class started and we each said something funny and each time we looked at each other. I hope this means something. J  

a game with you and me

Today I saw you laughing. It made me smile, so i walked over to you and asked you what’s up. You mumbled something and I only heard you “ …funny TV show.” I still smiled and laughed along with you. But then we had to go our own ways. (Stupid school) But I got to meet back with you. It was game party time since we were doing a fun –lock-in. I remember playing the game even though I was playing against you and 3 other players. I secretly watched which card you played so I could choose it ad help you win. J <3 But the day slowly turned grey and we had to go, but there’s Always Monday! 

I saw you Today

I saw you today, In what feels like forever. I blushed and kept my eyes to the ground while we walked past each other. I saw you look at me and I’m sure i saw a blush. I thought that i might not have "the crush" feelings for you, but when i saw you again it came back. I wondered all day if you still had the same. And just my luck, you were in my class. I wanted to sit next to you and catch up but i sat in the corner. But tomorrow I get to see you again.